i sent my laptop to a place. it won't be fixed until after i start my job. i'm scared i will have less time to socialize.
things didn't really work out with that friend from before...i don't think they were interested in talking to me
none of my friends, all of whom i've known since i was a child, really understand me. i'm not looking for people who share the same interests as me. in fact, i don't even necessarily want "friends" (a term that is sometimes too restrictive and alienating). i just want to admire the existence of another person who feels a similar way. all love feels the same to me. regardless of my feelings, however, i have no one else to share it's warmth with (other than my beloved, of course).
the solitude is unwelcome and thinking about the suffocating void of seemingly endless loneliness i will have to endure is driving me insane