i got my job back. my managers called me in to discuss what happened and informed me that i'm a diligent worker and that particular shift was just stressful. they also told me i can come to them with any issues i have regarding my coworkers, but i think i'm going to avoid saying anything unless it gets out of hand. i feel a mix of disappointment and anticipation towards everything, especially since i got a really good job offer elsewhere.
interestingly enough, when i told my bosses that i am deeply apologetic for my unprofessional display (i left them to cover my mistake that day and i didn't like how that reflected on me) and that i was seeking professional help on improving my composure in the workplace, one boss looked fretful and informed me that it "wouldn't be necessary". afterwards, when i explained this to my mother (we rarely talk), she kept changing the conversation to meds. why are people so untrustworthy of therapy when they've never been to one (i'm assuming)? regardless, i am determined to talk to a therapist.
i cleaned out some entries and got rid of the weird naming scheme. i wanted to keep everything the same but some of those entries felt too short or too personal. i think i'm going to try to put more thought into them.
i hate pharmacists and talking to people. i've changed my mind: i'm not a reformed hikkikomori, i just have a job now.
oh, i almost forgot!!! i'm back and here to stay ^_^